self-righteous.

i'm not perfect. and to pretend to be is to operate out of a very self-righteous mindset. it is inevitable that i will let people down, unintentionally hurt them, disappoint them. i'm human, after all. but to take this failure (in the sense of a shattered sense of idealized perfection) and let it take root in me, to claim it and wallow in defeat or disappointment, is not only unreasonable, it's sin. it's sin because in that mentality, i am essentially saying that i am good enough. and in attempting to be "good enough," i am entirely missing the point of the fact that Jesus died because i am not, nor can i ever be, good enough. if He is willing to love and forgive me when i was living in unbelief and rebellion, who am i to be unwilling to forgive myself, being a stickler in even the most seemingly insignificant things? who am i to turn down the grace that was so costly and is so freely given?

to walk in the knowledge that i am not perfect, i will make mistakes, and that i get to live in grace is lifegiving.

check out the sermon that the Lord used to reveal this to me HERE.

next update i promise to have pictures :)

love,
tracey